This doesn't make any sense but I think my beard is making my hair itch.

it's true

Here's a list of things that have made staying at home worthwhile:

1. Since coming back from the hospital on Saturday, I haven't taken a step outside home. That's 3 days in a row now, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday. Easily the longest I've been at home. Record broken.

2. Being at home means facing all four walls till someone comes home which also means I don't have to look presentable. I haven't shaved my facial hair since last Thursday & I'm kinda digging the look. Gotta take a picture before I have to get the hair off my face but for now, I'm Asian Caveman.

3. I'm watching TV more than I've ever imagined. Animal Planet, Discovery Channel, Channel 5, Channel 8, Nat Geo, you bring it, I watch it.

4. I'm saving $$$.

5. Fuck. I thought there were more.

road to recovery

Today is no different from yesterday or the day before or the day before the day before. I've been at home for about a week now. Kinda feels like how it was before I enlisted- carefree. Well, that of course belongs to an ancient time. I guess I'll never have a break like this again. It seems that way anyway, adulthood.

one saturday

Like I predicted, the week's over fairly quickly. It's Friday tomorrow, which means heaven for most but I volunteered for duty this Saturday 5 weeks ago :/ if only I'd known.

Now that would mean:

1. No morning footy
Thomson sent me a text earlier asking if I wanted to play on Saturday. I wouldn't have agreed right away but the option to play would have been comforting. My urge to play ball comes and goes.

2. No wee hours on my guitar
This happens almost every week. Whenever I'm done bumming, 'll pick up my guitar, Fuji, play it for hours, singing to re-used chords, trying to find the best melodies I can come up with which usually ends up with me falling asleep with the lights still on.

3. No shades?
Probably about a month ago, I decided that I should get a pair of shades and I thought last week, that when my allowance came in this week, I'd go look for one. Maybe I still can come Sunday but I'm looking for one to last so it shouldn't be an impulse buy. We'll see.

4. No movie night
I used to rent movies a lot before I enlisted, good movies, bad movies, action, romance, comedy, sci-fi, animation, everything. To me it was one of the more sensible ways to pass time. It also made me think that having watched so many movies, perhaps I could be a director. I'm naive like that.

5. No bumming
It's generally known how bumming at home is like these days. You turn computer on, log in to facebook, Twitter, look for laughs/music/trailers/reviews/tutorials/celebrity interviews on YouTube, take a shower, repeat the cycle with a packet of chips and your favourite drink from the fridge and is now ready for round 2. I can't afford to do this when I get back on Sunday.

Pulp Fiction also has to wait. Boohoo.

this & that

I'm feeling pretty good about the upcoming week. Not that it's gonna be any easier than the last, but I just feel good. Plenty to do this week so time is probably going to pass faster & I like that.

I don't know why but it's always during these last few minutes before I leave for camp that I start to feel for mom. I would think back to see if I've spent enough time with her and I'd feel guilty if I hadn't. Today, I don't know. Maybe I could have given her more of my time. Okay I feel like crap now.

I'm a little more at ease with myself than I was maybe a week or 2 ago. I think it's the people around me, how important they are.

the story artist

I've always wanted to be able to express myself through forms of art, particularly drawing. I like creating. Wasn't all that motivated until recently, when I started to draw again. It's one of the few things I do nowadays to remind myself that I'm still pretty much alive.

sunday's buy

It isn't easy to find music I actually wanna listen to nowadays. Came across these guys in a music store, glad I picked 'em up.

music find: the black keys